Rabu, 30 Juli 2014

Touch Love - Yoon Mi Rae, OST Masters Sun

ROMANIZED
nae son kkeute geudaega
seuchimyeon chaga wotdeon
shimjange ongiga beonjijyo
salmyeoshi dagaga
gidae goman ship jiman
geudaewaui georineun
jobhyeo jijil anhneyo
manjil suga eobseodo dwae
aneul sudo eobseodo dwae
Lonely love Yes I love you
nae unmyeong cheoreom
geudael neukkil su isseoyo
rallalla- ralla- ralla-
rallalla- ralla- ralla-
rallalla- ralla- ralla- ralla-
nae mam daheul su isseoyo
du soneul nae mireo
geudael jabgo shipjiman
deo meoreojil geot gata
geudae gyeoteul maem doljyo
saranghal su eobseodo dwae
daheul sudo eobseodo dwae
Lonely love Yes I love you
nan meolli seodo
geudael bol suga isseoyo
manjil suga eobseodo dwae
aneul sudo eobseodo dwae
Lonely love Yes I love you
nae unmyeong cheoreom
geudael neukkil su isseoyo
rallalla- ralla- ralla-
rallalla- ralla- ralla-
rallalla- ralla- ralla- ralla-
nae mam daheul su isseoyo
Lonely love
ENGLISH TRANSLATE
When you pass by my finger tips
Warmth spreads throughout my cold heart

I want to softly go to you and lean on you
But the distance between us is not narrowing

It’s okay even if I can’t touch you
It’s okay even if I can’t hug you
Lonely love
Yes I love you, like my destiny
I can feel you

Lalala lala lala
Lalala lala lala
Lalala lala lala lala
My heart can reach you

I want to reach out my hands and hold you
But it feels like we’ll get farther apart so I just linger around you

It’s okay even if I can’t love you
It’s okay even if I can’t reach you
Lonely love
Yes I love you, even from far away
I can see you

It’s okay even if I can’t touch you
It’s okay even if I can’t hug you
Lonely love
Yes I love you, like my destiny
I can feel you

Lalala lala lala
Lalala lala lala
Lalala lala lala lala
My heart can reach you

Lonely love

I'm seriously can't move on for a week already

Forgetting You

Unlike the ending of my favourite Korean Dramas which is happy, my lovestory hasnt reach it ends. It continues anyway. I find myself fail at bringing my "close almost get into realtionship" into the real one. There are tons of guys I'm close to, but none of them ended up being my boyfriend. Its okay its okay, the thing I wanna tell is the last guy I'm close to. Let's say its over before having begun. Sad isnt it? Well to be honest yes,but now its not. 
One part of the drama really slaps me in the face of reality. These sayings make me drown in tears, seeing how two people separating ways after all the time.

"I will just remember you as the person who eat and hold hands with me for one time.
Let's say forgetting each other is this simple because we haven't done too far"
Those sayings means a lot to me, since I've done many things with this guy. Hayah.. Too many sharing moments we had, eat not only once, we could even call them as dates hahaha. Holding hands even it was incidentally done it still can be cout as one. It was sooooo yesterday, I already wake myself up. He can deny it as much as he want, I never wanna lie. It was good back then. But I'm done, I'm done, forgetting you is easy anyway ~

Selasa, 29 Juli 2014

Best Way To Die

   There are too many ways to die, whether its dying because of illness, fast way or slow way to die. People may die because of certain disease or factors, but in this case I'm going to talk about a very awful way to die. Hahahha One of the way is this, by loving someone who doesnt love you back. Why this way? You gotta know when you experience it yourself. 
   I get one of this kind too, it lasts at least for almost 4 years. Since I was 18 summer after highschool I met that guy, my classmate at the very first year in this govt college. Loving someone who doesnt love you back or we can call it one-sided love is a seriously awful way to die. Why I keep saying this? Because I once experience it and once is enough to be ignored all the way I was. Maybe he's just a shy famous guy, but I can't stand of the symptoms I'm having. It was like serious disease attacking me. Loving someone who doesnt love me back went all the way he turned me down like that. 
I cried, having myself unable to breath freely whenever I see him, feeling the embarassing things alone, having butterflies in my stomach while I didnt even know he felt that way or not. He's just a guy I like, us gettting in such cheap gossip like that maybe made him uncomfortable so distancing ourselves was the best way he thought it would be. I dont think the same way, I'm a noisy girl who hates being ignored. 
   As the time goes by, guys come and go the way they are. Just being close friend is enough for me. They come and go like seasons, sometimes this guy another time is that guy and so on. Why being bad bitch having such affairs here and there? Its not affair but just because I need shoulder to lean on, lets call it symbiosis mutualism. Me, trying to find someone that may fit me and the guy I'm close to looking for a close friend who can accompany and fulfilling his needs, which is me. I find myself getting attached to somebody who gets me no settled status so many times, I get tired and loving that guy back. You may call me crazy then. Its like I keep repeating the same mistake over and over but I dont know how to make myself the final move not to get back loving him. Ah I feel stupid, I wanna live happily without having my way to die slowly loving someone who doesnt love me back. 
    I've experienced so many friendzoned things, but it keeps leading me back to him. Mmm It was, it was. Like seasons, people changes and hearts move on. So does my heart. It has been moved from him to somewhere. I am no longer that pathetic loving a guy who doesnt love me back. Sometimes I get myself brokenhearted but its not that bad like before. Though my heart lost its directions I'm at ease now that I'm not that explosive and being wiser to pick my love story unlike before.. Alone is better sooo many times, or falling in love with a random guy at the train station maybe. Hahaha Another way I do for falling in love nowadays is by watching Korean drama agaaain ~ I can love those handsome oppas in the drama I see and never worry to get myself broken. I wanna have a great love story like the drama went, I dont wanna experience the best way to die by loving someone who doesnt love me back like before. 
I'm tired,.byee~


Because talk is cheap I'm telling you this,
written by Anggi Restiana Dewi

Addicted

Heart beats fast, worrying levels up
Hands keep shaking from avoiding any contact
Staring blankly at the phone continuously, waiting for a miraculous call will come
One hour, two hour till the date changes no news come
Wondering, imagining what that person there's doing
How he could easily forgetting, while here she's still trying
Not to make the memories got burried
Her unability to move her up, cheering her own broken heart
She's addicted to that ignorant guy
Wanna move but she just can't
Staying, being miserable in latest condition, how pity
Please come another light into her life, so that she could cheer herself up

My Very First Pasport

   Studying abroad, travelling abroad are my dreams since I was kid. Too many factors kick me out of the way, I am in the state that I'll be a civil servant soon in the age of 22 and I haven't even going abroad for once in my lifetime. I waste my time for delaying pasport making. One of my pals says that a lecturer in UI even gives advices and make his students travel abroad with all their own way. Woow, it will be great If I can grant my own wish too. Seeing another friends in normal college get the chances for student exchange abroad, travelling with all of their blessed life I'm dying inside actually. Being jealous and doing nothing is total waste I think. So I decide to just wait TKD home and start to collect my documents for making my own pasport. I have to make it, my own way, I dont care If I have to go alone. 
    Browsing the steps of making pasport in immigration office I choose the online one. I scan all documents needed and register online. Wednesday, July 16th thanks God I have friends in Semarang so I'm not confused doing the payment in BNI. Thanks bro Arga who's willing to take me. And I complete the registration and choose the next day July 17th to come to the Immigration.
    It was such a hot fasting day, ehem I wasnt fasting anyway but it took a looooong way to get there. I had to ride bus, BRT and finally got there. I was just a lonely confused girl, thanks God I found the same age girl who's making pasport like me, Heny. When she asked me where I wanna go I kept saying Japan and Korea hahaha I dont know which first country I'm going to actually. The most important thing I make my own pasport first. Hahaha



   After queuing for the document checking, we moved to the next line, waiting for taking photos and interview. I thought it would be a very complicated thing making my own pasport without what do we call calo hahha. Alhamdulillah the process finished after the interview. A mommy who's waiting for the 13th salary as civil servant kept being busy talking to me about bureaucrazy and THR thing. She even asked me how does it feel to work in Ministry of Finance, oh maam my destiny hasnt been decided yet wkwkwk I hope soon. And we laughed about many things while another people queuing kept staring at us. Oooops sorry. And thanks God it was 10.00 when I finished all process. The pasport will be ready to take the next 6 days !
   I decided to go back home instead staying at my aunties home longer. I came to my junior high friend and spent a night accompanying her fasting then we go home together ~ 
The date my pasport about being ready to take I spent almost a day for being stuck in a traffic, how cruel Semarang roads during mudik time like this. It was super awfull and tiring day. I met a Chinese girl who's going to Immigration like me, Yihan her name. Hahaha She can talk Indonesian language anyway. And after one hour I get my pasport mumumu, my very first. Alhamdulillah, one process being clear. I'm ready for being a part of Ministry of Finance and spend my money for travelling abroad. Bismillah, it has to be 2015 anyway.. :"""""

Senin, 28 Juli 2014

Ketika SMS tak penting lagi ~

   I live in the era ketika SMS bukanlah salah satu media komunikasi utama. Yap, banyaknya aplikasi untuk komunikasi sebut saja whatsapp, line, bbm dan kawan kawannya, hal yang namanya SMS bukanlah media komunikasi penting lagi. Pelan tapi pasti perannya mulai diambil alih oleh medsos yang lebih kekinian.
Sedih sebenanrnya, ini bukan lagi jaman ketika sms ucapan, perang kata - kata sok manis dikirim untuk ucapan, jarang sekali untuk masa sekarang ini orang dengan legowo mengirim sms yang diketik tanpa copas. Syukur alhamdulillah masih inget sms, jaman sekarang fungsinya sudah mulai diambil alih. Ikut arus, karena ga punya pulsa dan sedih. Perkembangan teknologi semakin canggih, komunikasi manusia semakin terlalu berlebih, dan ini malah seringkali mendekatkan yang jauh dan menjauhkan yang dekat, ya era smartphone ini membuat usernya jadi dumbass diakui atau tidak. 
   Mantengin timeline yeahmahasiswa semalem cuma bisa cengengesan nostalgia, sekaligus sedih. Duh dek udah semakin tua, teknologi udah maju kemaana - mana. Semoga yang namanya SMS tidak akan terlupakan ya lama lama biarpun kecanggihan memfasilitasi semuanya


Happy Ied Mubarok 1435 H :D

   It's a great day to all moslem in the world, Happy Ied Mubarok 1435 H everyone. Hope we can have blessful life. To all Palestinians, hope the conflict get resolved and you all get the best :( My wishes for you all there.
   Today, after facing the reality that I'm late coming to the mosque I even wear no shirt ah what are you doing Anggi -__- It such a gloomy and cold day by the way. Ah, the atmosphere I get to feel is great until we visit each others house to forgive each others fault. Ah so nice being in a holy state again. Alhamdulillah :") Besides the good feeling I get, it leave a bit annoyed and hufftness feeling when people keep asking who is my boyfriend, where is my office now, where am I getting placed, where will I get married and where do I'm going to travel. I have no boyfriend, I haven't get my placement, I havent traveled abroad, and I have plans to get married when I get what I want and my obsession I can reach soon.  I ask for your blessings my neighbours, just give me best prayers so I can reach all the great achievement like I wish :""""" Ameeeeen
   I don't really have the will to write today but I just wanna wish you all Happy Ied Mubarok, hope next year we can all see Ramadhan and Idul Fitri again ameeen..

See you again people, xoxoxo

my only grandma, parents and brothers

Masters Sun 's

Touch Love - Yoon Mi Rae
When you pass by,my heart that once cold spreads with warmth
I want to come closer and just lean on you but the distance between us doesn’t get any closer
I cant even touch you, I cant even hug you
Its okay not to feel your touch
Its okay not to be in your arms
Lonely love yes I love you like you’re my destiny

Driving Me Crazy - Hyorin
You make me crazy, you make me cry
When I’m reaching for you almost to grasping you close in my hand
It moves further away, like the wind
What do I do alone?
Part of the soundtracks I love ~


First time I get the suggestion to watch this drama I refuse because of the horror in it. But when I have no more to watch I am addicted to the story. I fell for the couple and how they've been through until they're getting along so well.
   So Ji Sub as Joo Joong Won and Gong Hyo Sin as Tae Gong Shil makes me fall for their love stories. Tae who can see ghosts found Joong Won as her shelter hideout whenever she can see ghosts. It makes her tailing wherever Jun Woo goes, as he's an extremely expensive CEO but Tae keeps following him. He is quite rude and annoying at first but they're seriously funny, how scared Tae seeing ghost and how she can depend on Joong Won after knowing the fact of his bitter past love. She becomes his radar to solve Joong Won case, stealing skinship everytime she can to hide from those ghosts.
   As the time goes by, one by one ghost tailing Tae that finally caught Joog Won attention,and all the things happened between both of them making me crazy. I'm being super excited though its almost a year late to watch this hahaha.. I'm going crazy xD
    I cry so hard for every sad scenes when they get separated for Joong Won almost get killed when saving Tae Gong Shil. He realizes how he grew his feeling for an unpleasant woman like Gong Shil but they're supercute. I love the way it being played, the mix and match stories, love em so much. I even bring myself into this drama, fall deep to their love line, get brokenhearted, such an ups and downs. 
    Watching this drama, I realize one thing. I think I make myself entering the fangirling world again, the place where I spend time after being disappointed of my lovelife. Well, the happy ending after such a marvelous process of the love story I really like it. Tae Gong Shil and Joo Joong Won, their happy ending. I want one like em ~



Happy Birthday M

   Hello everyone, tomorrow is a very special day to all moslems in the world. We are going to have Idul Fitri day which means we're being innocent and fitrah again. Despite celebrating the Idul Fitri, today near my place there's Fireworks parade held, so lovelyyyy watching the fireworks ~
   Today, the last fasting day there's somebody I used to know celebrating his 22th birthday. Hello dude, It's been a long time I didn't get the chance to see you. I used to like you like a pathetic girl before. Have a blessed life, I wish nothing but the best for you. Keep calm, it's not that I'm really into you I just want to congratulate you ~

Dear College Life

It’s been a year since you’re officially ended, graduation is the prove..
It was October last year,
I can’t hold myself for missing you dear college life
I miss everything in it, the moments, the people and everything back then
We’ve been separated for almost 9 months, having our own life without any certain decision made for our future
We’ve been waiting for the uncertain placement, going on different directions, having different routines and choose the different choices for this waiting
It’s okay when  I was in my busy and happy time, nothing goes wrong with me..
I ended my busy time moments ago, that was the starting point when I started this craving feeling
The “damn I miss my college life feeling”, the miserable and sorrowful feeling keeps haunting
I’m tired actually, but the old pics I’m seeing keep reminds me of the old times I can’t leave already
I’m just lonely, I miss the moments so baad..



Senin, 14 Juli 2014

Willkommen in der Weltmeister Deutschland! :))


   Since 12 years ago, I decided to love this team. That was the moment when I was a sick kid. I'm dying to love football and Germany. In World Cup Final 2002, Oliver Khan who was the keeper can't deny the power of Brazilian player, Ronaldo. Ah, it was soo long time ago 2- 0 for Brazil victory. I have no idea back then. Talking about 2002, Miroslav Klose, our lovely legend won the silver medal as Germany was placed second. And he's 36 now. It's time for him to retire and hang on his shoes :"
   Another World Cup I always remember was in 2006, held in Germany. Sadly, being the householder couldn't make Germany win the World Cup. Germany ended up being in 3rd place after beating Portugal with score 3- 1, well that was bronze medal for Klose hihihi. I was kinda crazy back then, shouted loudly in teachers office w my pals in Junior High when we're holding an event at school. Aaaa, I miss that moment. I miss my 2006 back!
Pod, Ballack and Klose
    The next four years was FIFA World Cup 2010 which held in South Africa and Waka - Waka song became the loudest soundtrack there hohoho. I kinda desperate at that time, as a new graduated student I was in my waiting time for university stage to come. That semifinal moment when Spain won over Germany I cry so hard in my uncle's house, they support Spain and I get bullied for my fav team lost :( And then, they ended up being the 3rd again. Ah, I was so saaaad that it's bronze medal again. Brokenhearted </3
    And finally it's now, this FIFA World Cup 2014 in Brazil where Germany can break the curse that European country can't win in America Latin's land. It will be crazier If I'm still in my college life since there will be " nobar" everywhere with my pals. There will be crazy shouting from our house in Paus, and there will be some kind of guessing score thing. And I kinda miss the bullying everyone used to do #ooopsie

FIFA World Cup 2014 Champion, Germany :)
    Since I'm home, I watch the matches in my neighbour house. It sucks when I'm here and the channel got censored at home. Every night I watch the match in my neighbour house, my cousin's house. It's like knocking someone's home near midnight and disturb their sleeping time. Please forgive me~ I don't wanna miss the match, Germany especially. 
I was in a total worry when it's time Aljazair vs Germany. Luckily it ended up being good way to Germany. Another thing is, Germany can beat France thanks God to semifinal. And in semifinal, it was a good air that Germany can do the revenge for get beaten in World Cup 2002. :") I bet Germany would meet Holland in final but I wrong, and it's Argentina. Hmm
    I can't wait for the Final match, I'm tired of such copras capres news and quarrels everywhere. I stay awake all night just in case not to miss the match. I go out in a windy cold early morning, having "nobar" in my neighbour house, well I'm the only girl while the others are men with their cigarretes on. It's okay, I wanna watch the match. Anyway Germany vs Argentina is such a boooooring match until the time's over. I was in a deep worry since Argentina used to play in additional time and penalty kick when beating Holland. No no no please, my stomach's sick, I'm dying and biting my nails everytime Leo Messi or Higuain runs near the wicket (?) 
    It was almost an end when Neuer and Higuain bumped into each other. Ooow, it must be hurt. And I frustate myself and a bit disappointed when the bloody accident of Bastian Schwensteiger >.< Why blood why? But its okay since in the additional time, Mario Gotze can give one and the winning goal for Germany. I am so happy! Alhamdulillah after waitiing for a loong time, welcome champion of FIFA World Cup 2014. Willkommen in der Weltmeister Deutschland! :))

bloody Schweinsteiger 
look at them hahaha Pod and Bast
As for Klose, he can now retire in a good way. Two goals in 2014 World Cup, and be a legend for being top scorer in World Cup. Hello 36 years old salto man, I'm happy for you Idol for the girls hahaha. 

Aku pensiuuuun!!

 As for Schweinsteiger, such a gentleman. Ah I'm so touched.

Benzema, Ronaldo, ? I forget the name, and Messi

For Mesut Ozil, you can now have your fasting time. You're still one of my favourite ones ~ But, the tattoo, ah -__-'' Anyway Happy Fasting in Ramadhan 

Ozil gives his shirt, aaaak I wanna hug him :$
For Neuer you are great dude, you can have the same achievement like Mr Oliver Khan, ciyeee Golden Glove, ciyee best goalkeeper World Cup 2014 yeaaay. 

Manuel Neuer :D
ciyeee Golden Glove~


For Gotze who's 22 years old he can break the curse for bringing Germany win. I'm 22, the same age, still  in waiting for TKD and ah everything will be alright :( 

Mario Gotze after scoring for his team
For Khedira, aftern winning with Madrid congrats for winning with Germany too.

Sami Khedira, Kapten Lahm, Klose and the team
For Muller, youuu are still awesome 24!Andrew Garfield twin from Germany Hahahahha

Andrew Garfield twin, Muller wkwkwkwk

And as for this mister, your face still looks young as always anyway. Finally, you did it sir. :)
Cool Coach, Mr Joachim Loew
And how it ends, FIFA World Cup 2014, Germany wins, but still Argentina is a great team too. I feel happy and sad the same time, happy for my fav team winning, completing my happiness for Madrid before, but sad for the end of this World Cup event. Another sad thing is the waiting for TKD still goes on. Well everyone, thats how I tell you about this team I love. For STANers 2010, we still have to pray for TKD, be ready, study and will have our celebration after placement. Ameeeeen :))


Anyway, this quote is funny :
 Messi wins Golden Ball; Rodriguez wins Golden Boot; Neuer wins Golden Glove; and Suárez wins Golden Teeth.
See ya everyeone, have a nice sleeping day hihihi ~




Jumat, 11 Juli 2014

20 Things That Happened In My 20's

   Around the age of 20's, the most crucial stage for us. Being in such transition from teen age to adult, it's a hard stage but we have to be there. In the age of 20's many important decision made and we have to be responsible of everything we're going to do. The so called maturity for us starting from this 20th age, gives many new experiences and surprises of the things we've never had before.

1. Being an essay fighter, as a college student

my lovely college life happened here

   As a college student who'll finish her 3 years of college life in Diploma Programme, I have to finish essay, the final report for completing my study. And it's not easy If you get the perfectionist lecturer heuheu. Luckily I can finish it after so many corrections I get.

2. Your turn to graduate
me and STAPALA in graduation :)

w my parents

TROJAAAN


3. Watch your friends graduated then move
   In my life, I graduate first in Diploma Programme. But, my friends who finish their master program get their job first. While STANers 2010 have to wait for an uncertain time to do the placement test then have to wait more to be a part of Ministry of Finance. This thing that sadden me for not going in the university I was craving for. It's destined that now I'm a civil servant to be :") while some of my friends are going to continue their S2 study. Contrast isnt it? This is how we're being separated, everyone moves as the time goes by.

4. Craving for a job
I was an intern in DKI Jakarta Provincial Government
   Before the graduation I've signed a contract to work in DKI Jakarta Provincial Government in a Sensus Program. Thanks God I spend my first 3 months to work rather than being jobless and stay at home. I don't wanna waste my precious time doing nothing useful. By working here, I get so many lessons, new friends from STAN too, and sooo many things I can't tell one by one :") Thanks guys, I appreciate you all so much.

In Kanaka Public Accountant Office, my job as a consultant
   Finishing my first internship, I'm not being satisfied and I continue looking for a job. And I was accepted in Kanaka Puradiredja Suhartono Accountant Office. I get a job as a consultant, can travel to several places and make friends with more and more people :") Thanks guys, I will never forget our friendship Kanaka 48, we even held "Makrab"


5. Taste the bitter of being a jobless person


   I was confused in the end of May after finished my job contract in Kanaka and finally decided to go home, going on a trip, attending several wedding invitations and well staying home and being jobless. I hate it when being jobless makes me emotionally damaged. But thanks to Ramadhan month that comes as I stay at home. Alhamdulillah I get myself calmer and wiser. But I wonder when will TKD be held? I'm tired tasting the bitter of being jobless. Hope the best for STANers 2010, may Allah bless us all.

6. Try to reconcile your idealism and reality

   
   I have a liberal soul, an untamed personality, an idealism I don't wanna cross but it was over. I used to dream of being a doctor and failed getting in my dream track. I was thrown faar away from the path I wanna cross, now I've finished my Taxation Program in college but I still feel that it's not my spirit. People say you won't feel like working when its the job you love. And I wonder will I love this kind of job? I am in this path, trying to rebuild my idealism that now the reality has dragged me in this way. I used to uncare of the subjects I don't like, but now I realize that this path I have to cross need to be taken care.

7. Getting my first job
   Waiting for miraculous day, when will TKD, our placement test be held? I will soon be a part of Ministry of Finance. I wonder which department I will be in, BKF, DJP, DJBC or what? I have to study more, not to fail my carreer way, but I will wait the exact date announced.
   My dream job, far away from the reality now. My spirit is in some kind of free time job like singer, reporter for adventurous program, or freelancer. Ah, I will soon work in some kind of those boring building. I have to be ready then..

8. Living alone and financially independent


   Since I get the internship and chance to work I prefer living alone than staying home. Sooner, after TKD and I get placed in a department of Ministry of Finance living alone is the only choice. I will have my independent life without asking for every penny of my parents. The age of 20's is a new start of lifestage, being independent and ready to become adult.

9. Start thinking about Long term commitment
   I used to have unsettled relationships, no status, just go with the flow. Ya, sometimes it's good sometimes it's worse as I can't have the right to be jealous and so on. Those childish relationships, love stories that ended up sucks, having different beliefs or whatever the matters I'm not intereswted in those things anymore.
   Being a grown up woman, I started to think what kind of a man will be my pair, the person who understand me and care more, the person whom I can lean on, the one who never get tired of what happens and be mature enough to face everything in life. And it has to be someone with strong commitment I think.

10. Starting to care about my health


 Taking care of my health is important. I start to be a bit picky of the food I eat. I love outdoor activities, sports, and I start to go to gym just to force myself working out while I'm still in waiting for miraculous announcement of TKD. When I'm about to start love running, it's Ramadhan now. I almost have a blackout in gym, I force myself too hard to run. Well, after the announcement comes, exact date of TKD, and I'll start to live independent again I swear I will live healthier and happier. Slap me IF I forget to be spiritful! Hihihi


11. Start to manage my money, investment and savings

   Being an intern, working in Provincial Governtment and Accountant Office, I tend to spend money whenever I wish. I love travelling, I'm a bit careless of my savings. But, I'm gratefull at least I have 7 months being productive in this kind of waiting, earn my own money, buy a smartphone, daypack, heels, and several things. Since I ran out of money, I have to fasten my seatbelt to be tidier to organize my financial.

12. Make money is difficult, finally I know that feeling!


   After working in two different field, have to wake up early, struggle to get the commuter in a very crowded station, continue walking and wait for kopaja etc, and the routine I have everyday for working, now I know the hard thing to earn money. Reality slaps me in the face!I have to be more dicipline for my work and money.

13. Learn to live within my own capability


   Being a kid, teenager, I want this and that so bad, giving a really childish reason to have this and that thing, buying unnecesary things and many more. Since I'm a grown up lady now, I have to be realistic of the capability I have. I'll spend money based on my needs.

14. Do my hobbies and self-development things



   Before 20 I'm kinda confused and loose directions of where I will and what I wanna do. Since I'm no longer a kid I have rights to do whatever I want, what hobbies I have. I will continue my TOEFL couse, foreign language course, boxing, travelling, writing, singing in all the way I want. The key is, I have to know my day off and arrange my own schedule as I wish.

15 I'm so brokenhearted till no longer believe in love
maybe I can fall in love again If the person is Kim Soo Hyun alike wkwkwk

   Being in love, unable to have real relationship even once, too many things that keep me away from a serious relationship so many times I'm broken. Being friendzoned, friendzoning people, being a runaway love of someone, having a close relation that ended up being nothing, and a very painfull brokenheart,etc I've been there and done that. Hahaha Now, I'm in the stage that I am really disappointed of what guys are. I'm tired, and give up. Let's see If one day there's a guy that fits me perfectly, what miracle will come to me ~

16. One by one, my friends are getting married
get invitation w my own name on it

   One by one, my friends are getting married, invitations everwhere, attending my friends wedding is such a common thing to do. It reminds me that being in 20's is a serious stage. Hmm, will I be ready to be like them? Well, getting married isn't a game to play, I will not just do it because my friends are getting into it. I have to be ready and settled :")

17. Facebook, Path etc full of marriage, pregnancy and baby stories of my friends~

   The topic changed, one by one getting married, and the pictures they post in social media isn't just lovey dovey thing. Started from some kind of pregnancy till the picture of baby everywhere. I'm getting old already

18. Left behind


   I used to have friends everywhere, after graduation it seems I'm lonely. Where is everybody? This is life, I have to be ready for being left behind. But, taking care of the friendship we used to have isn't my only responsibilities, both sides have to do same way to keep the friendship we used to have. A tie that we never take care will loose and disappear. While, the other thing as our priority in life is family, make them priority before they leave you one by one. Remember, family is number 1.

19. Slowly, all of my experiences change me into an emotionally stable person

   I'm tired of being drama queen of my life. Finally, growing up make me calmer and wiser. I'm not as explosive as before, I'm not asshole like before. I'm grown up and responsible enough.

20. At the end, I learn about destined things



   I'm no longer a stubborn girl who willl get everything I want. I know the things are destined on their way. I will accept the fact that I can't be with the person that isn't destined for me. I accept the fact that I wans't a medical student and I won't be a doctor. I know God creates destiny to teach us lessons. And at the end, as a human I have to know that what human can do is giving some efforts while God is the one who will decide.

   Those are 20 things happen in our 20's from my perspective. Stage of life that we should pass, leaving the happy teen life and move on to the next stage for being adults. Well, being mature is a must while being youthful person is your choice. Let's be happy no matter whats gonna happen in life.

Sincerely, a no longer girl
around her 20's
Anggi

Source of my writing:
http://www.hipwee.com/inspirasi/anak-muda-umur-20-pasti-mengalami-ini-kalau-kamu/

Rabu, 09 Juli 2014

Pendakian di Bulan Ramadhan, Mount Prau Lautan Kabut 2.565 mdpl

   Bulan puasa naik gunung? Tak begitu masalah menurutku, itung - itung melengkapi perjalann ke Dieng bulan Mei kemaren yang belum lengkap karena meninggalkan Gunung Prau. Boleh sih, tapi itu tidak berlaku untuk orang yang sedang masuk angin dan kondisi tidak sepenuhnya fit yang dua hari sebelumnya hanya tidur - tiduran, aku. Apalagi aku yang mendadak ikut minim persiapan, untuk fisik terutama. Pendakian pertama ku di bulan Ramadhan, pendakian yang bisa dibilang bikin kapok naik gunung ini memberiku banyak pelajaran hmm. Awalnya Pangki, Sundul dan Pono berencana ke Prau bertiga, karena Sundul bertanya tempat sewa tenda aku ikut juga, cewek sendiri ga papa hahaha. Dan ternyata Pangki batal, digantikan oleh En - en, Kunti dan Arya yang berangkat dari Solo, sementara aku, Sundul, Pono dari Magelang. Gunung Prau here we come~

Rabu, 2 Juli 2014 

11.00 
Setelah sejam lamanya mondar mandir di Indomaret Secang, milih jajanan ambil, balikin, dan akhirnya belanja seiprit berangkatlah aku naik bis jurusan Wonosobo - Magelang yang dinaiki Pono dan Sundul. Akhirnya berangkat juga, tadi sempat diajak kenalan orang random hahaha
13.00 
Ngobrol, ketawa ngakak, sempet tepar akhirnya sampailah kami di terminal Wonosobo.


14.16
Sempat sholat dan sekian menit menunggu sampai akhirnya diputuskanlah meeting pointnya sambil jalan, di basecamp pendakian sekalian.Naik minibus, atau yang biasa disebut engkel kalo di daerahku, kami menuju Dieng ~ Sayangnya ongkos kami kemahalan, ah harusnya kan 10ribu jadi 15 ribu. Yowisla, itung - itung amal ngg
15.56 
Cuaca dingin Wonosobo menyapa, perjalanan berlanjut ke Dieng dan hujan deras mengiringi kami. Oh, God why? Gimana kami nanjak nanti kalo hujannya sederas ini. Bingung, tengok ke kanan eh Sundul dan Pono tertidur dengan lelapnya. Dan aku hanya menatap kaca melihat bulir bulir hujan jatuh membasahi Dieng, tumben banget ga tidur ciyeee. Sampailah kami di kaki gunung, di depan basecamp pendakian Gunung Prau. Hello Dieng, kami turun dari engkel dengan senangnya. Itu sebelum kami melihat pengumuman di depan basecamp. PENDAKIAN GUNUNG PRAU DITUTUP SELAMA RAMADHAN! Dhuaar! Panik lah kami bertiga, ditambah En - en , Kunti dan Arya belum datang dan mereka jauh - jauh dari Solo. Ah, harus gimana ini, masa aku harus ngarang catper biar ga malu batal naik gunung? -__-''


Ini ngetroll banget lah -__-

Dan akhirnya ide konyol itu musnah setelah salah satu petugas basecamp menjelaskan situasi yang sebenanya.
" Tadi ada 4 pendaki juga dari Semarang, mbak. Mereka udah naik tadi, ya kalau kalian mau mendaki ga apa - apa tapi kami ga bertanggung jawab kalo ada apa - apa ya." begitu kata masnya.
16.30 
Datanglah En- en, Kunti dan Arya, kami bertiga sembunyi di masjid mengerjai mereka biar ngerasain panik yang sama wkwkkw maap ya. Kami bingung dan masih galau, setelah bertemu dan berunding kami berteduh ke masjid dulu.
Oiya, mas petugas ini keliatan agak keras orangnya. Bahkan dia bilang setelah ada kasus kejadian ada yang mati di Gunung Prau ini dia malah senang. -__-''
" Kemarin habis ada kejadian yang mati mbak di sini, tapi saya malah seneng jadi ga pada ngeremehin kalo mau ngedaki gunung ini." Glekk! Kok kalimatnya gitu sih, jadi nakut nakutin, Mas.
17.12- 17.40 
Menunggu hujan reda akhirnya diputuskan kita akan buka puasa di sini, makan di bawah sekalian masak untuk makan besar. Tadinya ide membuat kolak sempat akan dieksekusi, karena keburu adzan akhirnya batal dan pisang dimakan batangan tanpa dikolak hahaha. Thanks to En - en Kunthi yang menyiapkan logistik dan Pono yang membawa kurma. Selamat buka puasa..


20.08
Duduk di basecamp yang sepi, berdiskusi hingga niatan untuk ngecamp di sini pun muncul mengingat hujan yang terus menerus mengguyur. Sayang sekali karena keterbatasan waktu kami taraweh sendiri - sendiri, yang ga taraweh ya ga papa. Karena bosan di dalam, Sundul dan Pono berjalan keluar. Makan besar sudah siap, saatnya makan, sambil ngobrol dan ribut. Kata Pono dan Sundul di luar kering, udah ga ujan. Tapi suara hujan dan gemericik air masih terdengar, dan gaya mereka pun tidak berusaha meyakinkan.
" Ah ga mungkin di luar kering, ini suaranya masih kedengeran. Kita camp di sini aja." kata Arya
" Kalo ga percaya ayo kita cek, ayo En." kata Sundul.
Dan benar ternyata di luar hujan reda, pintu belakang basecamp dibuka. Tau itu suara air dari mana? Di belakang ternyata ada sungai. AAAAh, so embarrassing you know. Jadi dari tadi kita dengan polosnya nunggu hujan reda dan itu suara kali. Astagfirullah, ngerasa bodoh banget -___-''
21.00 - 21.30 
Bismillah, bintang di langit keliatan terang, siap jalan! Kata orang - orang sih nanjak sekitar maksimal 3 jam, ada yang 1,5 jam malah. Whoaa, berarti ga susah - susah amat ya, begitu pikirku. Setengah jam jalur pendakian setelah lewat pemukiman penduduk, jalanan berbatu naik sampai lah kami di pos 1. Sementara Kunti sempat muntah karena tidak enak badan, kami istirahat sebentar.
Perjalanan dilanjutkan, gerimis pun datang. Astaga kepalaku mulai nyut - nyutan, aku berusaha untuk di barisan depan. Bukan karena sok - sokan, mental breakdown kalo aku di paling belakang apalagi kondisi lagi begini badannya, mana perut mules ya Tuhan ampuni aku.
22.15
Ada tenda! Itu camp yang 4 orang naik duluan ternyata. Alhamdulillah ada temennya, seneng banget kayanya bakal camp di sini. Ternyata mereka anak SMA baru lulus, habis daftar kuliah, habis ngerokok di tenda. Ealah dasar terong! 
Sundul dan Pono naik duluan ngecek jalur, dan kami tidak berhenti untuk camp di sini, jalan masih panjang. Ah tidaaak, aku mules, gimana ini kepala pusing badan meriang, ditambah hujan, duh bang. 3 jam sampai puncak seems impossible dengan kondisi seperti ini. Kata  orang - orang jalurnya lumayan kok, bagiku ini bikin kapok semacam dihajar hujan dan medan yang licin berlumpur.
23.30
Arya dan Sundul naik duluan sampai puncak sementara Pono ditinggal dengan tiga cewek di belakang. Ah, jalan nanjak tanpa ampun, licin, dan aku hanya bersandal. Ga nyangka jalurnya akan semenyedihkan ini. Bahkan Kunti sempat kepleset duluan, aku naik dengan merangkak tanah yang konturnya rapuh. Sempat takut merosot dan ngguling ke jurang. Kunti pasrah, tinggalin aku aja di sini aku gapapa aku pasrah katanya. Sementara aku bengong memegang senter dan sandal, ya aku nyeker sekarang dengan jubah ponco yang lumayan menyusahkan pergerakan. En - en dengan sigap menolong sementara aku menyenteri pergerakan mereka bertiga. Sambil memanggil manggil Arya dan Sundul, tetap tidak ada jawaban.
00.30
Setelah camp 4 orang tadi tak ada jalur yang terlihat manusiawi, lumpur dan licin sana sini, dilema pake sandal licin ga pake sandal kepleset. Ya Allah aku harus gimana, ketinggalan di paling belakang bikin nyaliku sempat ciut apalagi jalurnya semacam ini. Aku merayap, celana kusingkap sampe batas di atas lutut, jangan dibayangkan penampakanku kala itu, porak poranda.
Ada jalur naik yang lebih licin dari jalur tadi, Pono, En - en Kunti naik sedangkan aku ketinggalan, pusing kepala, liat ke bawah aku trauma. Mau naik kaki dua berpijak di tanah licin semua, akhirnya badan gemetar semua. Ayo Bangsal naik, cari pijakan lain. Ga bisa, kakiku nginjek yang licin semua, aku takut. Dan aku nangis kaya pecundang, ah bodoh nangis gara - gara takut liat ke bawah. Ibuuk, aku mau pulang, mau belajar TKD. Aku ga mau mati di sini, aku ga mau ditemukan sebagai pendaki yang mati karena kepleset. Pikiran aneh - aneh sempat menghampiriku, alhamdulillah aku berhasil naik dan dibantuin. Ah, aku malu, perutku makin sakit pula kenapa harus di saat menegangkan begini sih.

Kamis, 3 Juli 2014
01.38 
Kabut semakin tebal, dingin semakin menusuk, ingus mulai malu malu keluar, ah ini dekat puncak berarti. Yeaay, akhirnyaaa ketemu tenda kami. Terharu akhirnya di puncak juga, penampilanku compang camping sekali astaga :( 
02.30 - 03.30 
Waktu hampir waktu sahur, sebentar lah tidur, badan udah remuk redam rasanya astagaa.
04.00-04.30 
Aku tetap meringkuk di tenda sementara semua orang di tenda sebelah, agak kebangetan ini dinginnya, aku kebas, pusing. Akhirnya setelah diteriaki berkali - kali aku bergabung dengan mereka untuk sahur. Sahur yang istimewa, di tengah lautan kabut puncak Gunung Prau :") Selamat puasa ~
05.45 
Karena terlalu dingin kami tidur lagi setelah Subuh, berburu sunrise pun terlupakan. Dan 4 orang itu ternyata menyusul kami ke puncak Subuh tadi. Aku keluar tenda karena kebelet pipis dan karena ocehan mereka yang ribut sih sebenanrnya =,=
lautan kabut~

selfie sementara yang lain masih tidur~

our camp ~

Lihatlah keluar, kabut di mana - mana, seperti bukan puncak Prau. Where is the sunrise people used to see? :( Inilah perjalana kami, susah payah, no sunrise, dan lautan kabut lah yang kami dapat. Well, setidaknya pernah ke Prau kan ya.
10.00 - 11.00 
Sempat beberapa kali keluar tenda dan kondisi masih sama, sementara adek - adek tenda sebelah turun duluan karena desperate tanpa sunrise pagi ini. Well, kalau semua orang foto di puncak Prau dengan latar belakang sunrise dan pemandangan gunung - gunung lain, kami tidak. Hampir semua foto selfie, dengan background putih kabut tentunya #tksbyePrau

12.00 - 14.00
Setelah bongkar tenda dan packing, kami trekking turun. Oiya barusan ada pendaki datang rombongan baru anak UGM. Sebenarnya kami punya sisa logistik, Pisang. Dan ga tega mau mewariskan ke mereka karena mereka datang tanpa niat camp, tanpa tenda. 
Turun dengan jalur yang sama, kok rasanya beda, kok jalannya ga seseram kemarin. Aku berniat ngesot seperti masa turun Gunung Slamet hahaha. Lihatlah pemandangan dari ketinggian, subhanallah. Dan sepertinya cuaca besok akan cerah, errr.
15.30 
Sampai basecamp, mandi dengan air sedingin es brrr. Beberes dan siap siap pulang setelah berburu Carica. See you Prau, semoga ini pendakian paling bikin kapok yang terakhir ya.
17.15 
Terminal Wonosobo sepi, bingung naik kendaraan apa pulangnya. Sempat ada miskom karena kami beda rombongan beda bis yang dinaiki. Belum sempat pamitan ke rombongan Enen bis Magelang datang, see you aku Sundul dan Pono pulang duyuu ~
Karena perjalanan yang lumayan lama kami bertiga buka puasa di bis, subhanallah ya musafir :") Bwahaha thanks guys paling engga ada hiburan puasa naik gunung, buka puasa di bis, naik di bangku paling belakang dengan tamparan angin dingin dan kami bertiga selimutan. Hahaha xD
20.15
Alhamdulillah ya bapakku udah jemput di pertigaan Secang, aku turun duluan. Sampai ketemu di perjalanan lain yang menyenangkan ~

Anyway, hari ini adalah 3 Juli 2014 dan aku punya puisi untuk diriku sendiri tentang hari bersejarahku ini

Sudah 13 tahun berlalu rupanya, semenjak peristiwa yang dulu memporak porandakan hidupnya.
3 Juli 2001- 3 Juli 2014
13 tahun yang lalu, dibalut perban seluruh tubuhnya seperti mumi dan terbaring di ruang pesakitan..
13 tahun berlalu, dia di puncak gunung yang diselimuti lautan kabut..
Pendakiannya diiringi hujan, tanah basah menguras energi, sahur berselimut lautan kabut dingin dan pagi hari tak didapatinya sunrise sesuai harapan..
Setidaknya tujuannya tercapai, memperingati hari bersejarahnya bukan di ranjang pesakitan rumah sakit seperti 13 tahun yang lalu..

Thanks Allah for giving me second chance to live,
I’m grateful for being alive,

In a cold and foggy place, Mount Prau 2.565 mdpl, with all my prayer and hope
A grateful one..
Anggi