Leaving and Staying

   I don't really understand what I'm feeling since today there's so many things upsetting me. Despite the happiness for knowing some of my friends are getting married, I become more upset than before. During Syawal, this August esp I hear 5 happy wedding announcement. The wedding I'm eager to attend is Suwi and Odol's since it will be held in Palembang and they're 1st of STAPALA STANers 2010 hohoho. Another one is my junior high friend's I can't attend, my classmate's wedding Yessie, my Kanaka mate Meisa and another one my STAPALA 2012 pals, Picis. I'm feeling happy and sad at the same time.

Me, as a no longer girl not yet a fully grown up woman started to love attending wedding invitation. It's such a reunion for every person I get rare chance to see. Ah, the atmosphere full of happiness. :D I have to realize that it's the stage where the age of college life and marriage life is getting near. Hmmm. This is the era when the birthday invitation has turned out to be wedding invitation everywhere. Hahaha

   Yesterday I attended STAPALA Magelang United thing along w my neighbour, Mas Tinton. Various kind people came, single, double and family, hohoho. Don't ask me, I'm still in the first kind of status. Another crowd I attend is today, halal bihalal IKMM. Many people come, I get the chance to be presenter for the event but I destroy everything with my ruined mood. I'm so sorry I just keep silent saying no useful things, I'm still in my own gloomy feeling of the 5 wedding news I get this month. These guys keep pushing Wildan to me, to be honest I feel uneasy towards him since this kind of 'cengcengan' thing has lasted for years without any improvements. Make a move Nggi, they say. Big no, I am still the girl no matter what. Hahaha After this gathering Reni, Ichi Nesty and others go home, Handayani who came with me going home with her boyfriend, while I'm joining karaoke-ing in Happup with anothers. Loneliness is the best way to kill me, ah fuck you Anggi why are you being this way today. A total mess! 

   I am happy singing in karaoke room again, at least I have my runaway thing tonight. Thanks seniors, at least I can sing although the bad feeling I have getting worse its okay.

written in a messy condition,

Saturday night of me,

Anggi