I miss my childhood,really

I was born,in such a happy family.A lovely mother and funny father.It was really a good time to have,good memories of childhood.Before the worst thing in life happened.
I got an accident,my life changed.
My dream was broken into pieces.I couldn't sing with that condition.What a shame!
I wanna be a doctor,heal my own scars of this life.
God,I'm already 21 now
I'm still a kid somehow that I couldn't be independent woman who can earn her own money
I could do nothing,even making my parents proud of my study I couldn't make it
I ruin everything
their smile,my smile,my happiness
somehow I change those smile to tears

I'm sick of myself,I'm tired for being like this
May I come back to the time when I was under 9?
May I come back to my childhood time?
I miss it already
I miss the time when I didn't have to fall in love
I miss the time when I love school
I miss the time when I just have to be happy playing around
or that childhood when I was in a good grade at school

Keep fooling around Anggi Restian
You're not a kid anymore
I wanna be mature
I wanna make them happy
cause I know that I couldn't turn back the time :"