Friendzone

The suckest relationship ever, it is..
The line between friendship and such relationship becomes blurred
When you're in the zone, its quite confusing
Being too close as If it were serious and compromising, but the reality after that is the opposite
Having too many sharing moments and doing many activities together may lead you to this misunderstanding..
One thinks it's just that we are good friends and being great together, but one may thinks it's more..
Sometimes we are unaware of creating this atmosphere, but it can't be helped
Most of comforting things come from a friend which we are unaware it will rise some sort of feeling

Been there done that
The feeling was great back then, but the thing after being left? Not so..
It could ruin the whole friendship, like mine.
I'm fixing it my own, for a peaceful heart of course

Suroloyo, one fine day July 2014

Suroloyo when it's sunny

Punakawan statue in the parking lot

    Suroloyo hill, the highest part of Menoreh hills located in the border of Magelang and Kulonprogo has an outstanding view during dry season. Having high position in 1.100 meters above the sea, we could see the view of Borobudur from Suroloyo. It's also known as the intersection of the mountains surround Magelang, like Merbabu, Sindoro, Sumbing, and Merapi. It was July 2014 when I went there with these 4 Ikmm pals, and the weather wasn't in stable condition. It changes from sunny to rainy day. Entering this Suroloyo hill, there's no fee we should pay for the ticket, only for the parking fee IDR 2k for motorcycle and 5k for car. There's no public transportation to geth there, so prepare your own ride. It would be nice If we were able to camp there. One visit is never enough actually since the view will be greater if the weather's nice.

 

Hope to go there again,

Cheers,

Anggi 

my silhouette in cloudy afternoon

Serba Salah Jadi Alumni STAN, Pegawai Pajak

   Jadi pegawai pajak? Bukan cita – cita tapi adalah realita yang sekarang kualami. Setelah kuliah di kampus yang sering dikaitkan sama alumni yang terjerat kasus pajak dan mendadak makin tenar, setiap mahasiswa yang kuliah di sana selalu dikaitkan dengan skandal kasusnya bang Gayus. Yakali satu almamater isinya orang korup semua, mikir bro mikir. Di tempat isinya orang jahat aja pasti ada yang jiwanya masih manusiawi dikit, apalagi ini kampus yang masuknya aja saingannya ratusan rebu dan susah dan di sini banyak anak alim dan cupu ketimbang yang freestyle nya kok. Keterima udah alhamdulillah. Ya kalo ada yang menyimpang anggep aja dia cuma kutu yang nyemplung di karung beras. Gitu..

   Kuliah tiga tahun dan setiap semester terancam DO itu serba salah, apalagi kuliahnya dibayarin pake duit negara. Wih, kalo ada apa dikit orang nyinyir seenak udelnya. Apalagi kasus nyangkut alumni kampus tercinta, “ Wah, anak STAN ya sekolahannya gayus. Ntar pasti kaya gayus.” Gila sok tau bener ya orang kalo komentar. Semenjak jadi mahasiswa dan tinggal di Bintaro sana, ke-serbasalahan tak henti – henti datang. Jadi anak baik – baik dan rajin belajar dibilang cupu, jadi yang ga merhatiin pelajaran di kelas dibilang ga tau diri kuliah gratis. Apalagi yang kerjanya dateng, duduk, tidur, pulang kosan, maen, dibilang kurang ajar. Tapi ya gitu, kuliah di STAN pasti ada aja serba salahnya. Kadang dateng kuliah kepagian dibilang sok rajin, eh taunya kuliah dibatalin. Duh sakiit hahahah

Jadi anak STAN itu serba salah, cinlok sama anak STAN dibilang selera rendah. Ga dapet – dapet pasangan dibilang kalah saing, dibilang kebanyakan milih. Deket sama anak kelas dibilang ngerebut pacar orang, ga deket sama siapa – siapa dibilang kelainan. Cowok jomblo terus dikira homo, kalo cewek jomblo dibilang payah pemilih dan sok jual mahal. Yang jomblo iri sama yang punya pacar, yang punya pacar pengen jomblo, gitu aja sampe lulus. Setelah lulus banyakan cinlok kawin sama sesama STAN dibilang biar penempatan bareng, ga kawin – kawin ditanyain mulu kapan kawin. Keseringan dateng kondangan dibilang berburu buket kembang biar cepet kawin, ga dateng kondangan dikira sombong. Aduh dilemanya anak STAN banyak. Apalagi gue hahaha, Semua akan kawin pada waktunya, yang penting usaha  ~

   Lulus kuliah ga langsung diurus negara dan kerja juga ada serba salahnya. Tinggal di rumah sekian bulan nganggur capek ditanya – tanya, kapan kerja, kapan penempatan. Kan panas juga ini kuping, ya mana gue tau -___- Untungnya sih ga stress amat karena dapet kerja sementara di Jakarta, jadi warga pengguna commuter sekian bulan lamanya. Sekian bulan penantian, mau kerja masih pake dites juga, serba – salah jadi alumni STAN, sabar aja aing mah.

   Jadi anak baru di dunia kerja juga ada serba salahnya, di kalangan internal juga ada aja salahnya. Maklum sih apalagi anak magang, pasti apa apa salah. Hahaha Pake baju necis dikit dibilang centil sok kecakepan, dibilang kemodisan, iya sih gue modis *digaplok*. Pake baju yang biasa aja, ga usah gaul gaul, gak bisa. Emang jadi pe en es bajunya harus keliatan kusut dan ga menarik gitu ya? Kan ada pepatah jawa bilang “ Ajining raga saka busana” yang artinya penampilan itu menentukan kepribadian juga, ya masa udah dunia kerja ga mau berpenampilan rapi sih dan gitu gitu aja.

   Kerja di pajak, bersinggungan sama masyarakat, yang bagian pelayanan apalagi, sering ada nggak enaknya kalo kejadian aneh – aneh menimpa. Ditambah baru – baru ini berita kenaikan gaji pegawai pajak yang rame di berita, wih pegawai pajak kaya mendadak. Kaya mendadak mbahmu! Itu kan cuma secuil yang di blow up kenaikannya, tapi ga dibahas tuntas yang penting publik tau kenaikan gaji pegawai pajak fantastis. PEGAWAI PAJAK KAYA MENDADAK? Ini udah April, mana nih gue belum kaya juga? HAHAHA Ngakak ngakak pedih sih baca berita semacam itu. Kita mah sabar aja, selama belum ada saldo di rekening ga bakal percaya sama gituan.

 Entah kenapa setiap ada berita terkait pajak, pegawainya lah, kinerjanya lah, apapun selalu terasa menyudutkan. Kami mah apa atuh, cuma pegawai yang kerja demi penerimaan negara tapi perhatian yang kami dapat tak sebanding dengan beban kerja dan target ini itunya ngeri bok.  Begini dikit dilarang, gitu dilarang, banyak yang akhirnya lepas kerja ini demi ketenangan batin. Yang penting mah kerja sesuai kemampuan, udah gitu aja yang penting di jalan yang bener, sisanya pasrahin sama yang di atas. Namanya juga hidup ye, serba salah udah biasa. Apalagi alumni STAN dan kerjanya di pajak, rasakno.

Sabaro wae ya, keep calm and keep kejar setoran ~~ 

Cheers,

A.R.D

Outdoor and the Equipments

    Speaking of the outdoor activities I’ve done before, when I was in my college life spending the money on a trip for buying the outdoor equipment was rarely be done. I’d rather borrow than buying cheap equips.  For the training to be STAPALA member, I got carrier borrowed from senior, so do the other equipments. Up until I became STAPALA member seniors told me not to buy outdoor equipment if it’s the low quality ones. Better to borrow from “posko”, other members in our organization or even the seniors. They would give permission for their belonging to be used. Ah, I really grateful being part of this familyhood. Starting from carrier, trekking shoes, sleeping bag, cooking tools, tent, even jacket I could easily get those items borrowed. A really useful way for a college student like me. Just remember and do the same thing for your junior later. This time you may be the one who borrow from your senior, but later on you’re the senior who give your belongings being borrowed by junior. That’s how our case works. The same thing works for the money too, but I rarely choose this way.

   Pushing back the carrier buying three years ago and I regret it more as the price getting higher day by day, and the money slipped away from my hands. Haaha how sad, even after working in somewhere place and earn enough money, I prefer to spend it for another use and then the chance to buy the Deuter carrier has gone ~ But, this year is my lucky time to finally get this baby bought in Outdoor fest 2015. Thanks for Cynthia who’s willing to go there heheh. One more item’s secured. It will be very useful after this. As the time goes by, I’m no longer college student who’s freely to go wherever I want. I have time limit entering this working life. It’s no use If you have equipments but never use it. Before my work placement which I don’t know when, securing this carrier is one step ahead than not having any. It can be useful for my training, going to my new workplace later and backpacking wherever since my luggage is broken (I prefer backpack actually).

   Planning on doing my solo backpacking once I move to a new place is quite thrilling for myself hahaha. I’ve prepared my passport since last year, wait for the full income then I’m gonna go there~ I don’t care If people keep bullying me for staying single, I just wanna travel ~~ And the list of equipments will be completed in my next stop are these things :

         - Carrier + coverbag ( done)

-        Daypack, already have

-           Trekking sandals, done

-          Sleeping bag, done

-          Trekking shoes

-          Windbreaker jacket

-          Trangia

-          Tramontina and multiuse knife

-          Tent, the last thing to buy

Wait for the announcement and get ready to move to a new place ~~

I’m coming ,

Anggi Restiana Dewi

Mount Andong, neighbourhood hiking

   Three years ago was 2012 when we had such a happy camping in Andong mount, yepp IKMM program for spending the time together. I was the cooking and food in charge although I wasn’t in the mood of it. Novia and Wildan came pick me to go there bringing the rest of the food while the other cooking ingredients had been brought by the truck our people riding. Our semester break was really worth to have the camp thing and simple hiking. Andong has a great view actually, but it’s nowadays too crowded since many people already know this place. Ah, my quiet place has now become noisy and dry. Hate the idea that more irresponsible people coming will ruin the nature we are living in.

   Our IKMM camping was great back then, we had fun playing the games in groups until dark. Praying together, cooking and eating near the small river in our camp. That’s lovely. The night is really cold but we keep talking and making jokes, there’s no thing such cold in warm togetherness like that. And what I love the most from that night was the clear sky, we lay down in the street and stared at the sky full of stars hahaha

   The morning came and we walked up climbing to see the sunrise. Olala, it was foggy and a bit disappointing not to see the sun rising. Usually the view in Andong is great, just like this. When will we go there again?

I Realize

Listening and giving a thought of Maher Zain's song " For The Rest of My Life" which tells a song from a husband to her wife, I realize some important lessons to take..
As a girl who never give a good thought of marriage, it would be great If I'd be waken up from the reality when I meet my man someday in the future. Giving a thought of it I just have no idea which one will lead me building a home in jannah together.
Which one will stop his steps and see me
Which one will fill my another empty half
Which one will make a vow to spend the rest of his life with me

I realize that living alone will be miserable and lonely.
That one day in the future I have to find the one to marry
That I won't let my generation extinct
That I wont let my parents worry seeing me being single the whole life

Speaking of which person compatible with me, finding the perfect one is not easy.
I've been too picky this whole time
There's a time when I want someone, he wants another
And someone whom I dont wish, want me so bad
Or having same feeling in the wrong situation I couldnt tell
There will always the kind of person who 's meant to come across and never stay
There will be kind of person who's hesitant to come but wanna stay
And there will be the only one who'll finally make me sure to stay

Ah, keep thinking isnt good for mentality and my health
Keep improving and learning to be better is one and only way to get closer to the person I wanna find
Since keep praying only won't do If I dont give my effort too
Doing both in same poportion is better anyway..

We'll see who's the one will end up staying with me

Zdravstvuyte, Russia

Waking up from such hectic end of March which makes us work overnight for the las 4 days of this month, hearing a good news from my postcard is good. It's from Anna in Russia, my travelling postcard arrived after travelling 8.482 km in 43 days. Wow, daebak, it's more than one month and arrive safely. Well, I plan to go to post office by this Saturday. I'm going to ask where my postcards are. Ah, God, why is the service being this annoying? I dont know whether I should think positively keep hoping or just give up for losing all my postcards and letters.

Please God, I'm tired already